Its been a crazy busy month for me. I think I took on way more than I should have. I should know my life by now - I have all these great ideas and then I get overwhelmed because I honestly believe that I can handle everything by myself but I actually cannot.
I figured, 3 weeks was enough time to get the studio together while keeping my orders current. Sadly... The space is NOT together and I have not been able to make the stuff on my idea board because of incoming sales (which is a good thing!).
No, you haven't missed anything, I did not create a single piece of the GMO Foods Collection. You know - purplish brown avocados, neon yellow bananas and an attempt to recreate Spongebobs "Nasty Patty". I mean the ideas I have are huge and unfulfilled.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I'm going to be completely honest - again... the truth floweth from my lips like water down the falls. I. AM. NOT. FEELING. THIS. AT ALL! I don't wanna cook, I don't wanna go over peoples house - I just wanna do what the hell I want to do, in my space on my terms. Its weird - but my family (like the people I am blood related to) do not celebrate anything anymore, stupid and messy. Its been me and my children FOREVER and as of the last 8 years, my children and the guy I married 3 years ago!
Tonight, after dinner (we eat really late around here) I will be going back to the studio to finish cleaning. I took Ryan and Autumn and they were no help at all. Autumn took a nap and Ryan played Apex and watched videos on YouTube. No help....which of course incited the panic. Then I had to go to the grocery store. My sister in-law assigned me mashed potatoes and candied yams. At first I thought it was a slight... but after thinking about it - I think they all know that I have been consumed with My Turquoise Kitten.
My oldest daughter is going to come looking for food - so I will have to make something for the people that live here. Its just too damn much.
and its PMS week... so yeah, there is the root of the attitude problem.
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